Today in my sexuality teleclass we looked at some of the most painful, violent, gruesome, horrifying judgments we can have about some of the things we hear about, or have experienced, while living on this earth.
These are the judgments we have about the darkness, the real human “hell” of violence, rape, murder. This would be the dark side of sexuality…..
Those “worst people” out there who are evil, destructive, and terrifying. The ones who do unspeakable things and cause awful pain.
We’d rather not even think about them. We wish they would go away and not exist. That they would be destroyed. And we feel really, really separate and different from them. This is a true moment of “duality”. I can totally separate myself from those other terrible people.
But who would I be without the thought that that evil perpetrator deserves to die, that he should not exist, that I could never understand him or her?
What am I showing myself and showing the world if I am talking about those terrible people with hate and fear, with violent words, and keeping them so separate from me. What am I doing if I keep announcing that the terrible person over there is my enemy, is nothing like me, and I will never get close to them.
Loving what is does not mean I think that what humans do is always acceptable. It doesn’t mean I lie down on the floor and let people step on me or walk on top of me. Loving what is, I have discovered, means I don’t turn against the terrible rotten other people. I’m not AGAINST them, resisting them, wanting to kill them.
Katie said this once; “A teacher of fear can’t bring peace on earth. We’ve been trying to do it that way for thousands of years. The person who turns inner violence around, the person who finds peace and lives it, is the one who teaches what true peace is. We are waiting for just one teacher…you’re the one.”
YOU’RE THE ONE.
Today can you think of your enemy and ask only the simple question, “who would I be without this thought that this person is my enemy?”
I notice my shoulders relax, I stare out at the gray clouds, and I feel such compassion for all the people suffering….for anyone in the middle of a violent moment towards someone else or towards themselves.
We’ve all been violent, even if it’s only with our own thinking. What would it be like if I didn’t think “this shouldn’t exist and it should be crushed”.
I know I’d start with being much more open. Who knows what can happen from there. The most amazing stories of healing.
The power of the group doing this kind of intense work together, really exploring how we might work with our inner violence, is incredible. We give each other ideas, just by listening to each other’s work.
Thoughts we believed we would never let go of, stories we thought we would never forgive….start melting away.
You are the teacher you’ve been waiting for!
I can’t wait for the next teleclasses….and by the way, think about coming to Breitenbush in June. It will be amazing!
With love and appreciation, Grace