Category: The Work of Byron Katie

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Give Up Changing In Order To Change

Today I was thinking about times in life when people get a wild hair and change something major in one big fell swoop.

AND NOW, for something completely different!!

And following this, the person leaves town, hits the road for another country, quits their job, says “yes” to going on a date by someone they don’t think of as their type, doesn’t stop at the usual bar on the way home, joins a gym, hires a counselor, calls a family member and tells them the truth, throws the cigarettes out the window on the freeway….

That moment, something changed.

Even if the event had been mulled over for a long time, that was the day action occurred.

Something reached out for a new experience, walking through a door into new territory….something willing to either feel the pain of not-knowing-what-will-happen-next, or to get away from the torture of living the same repetitive conditions.

Many researchers in psychology and spirituality, many humans in general, have studied why people change, and why it sticks, and why people DON’T change or why it DOES NOT stick.

The Harvard Business Review had an article several years ago on the best ways businesses make change.

The number one step? Assess where the business is right now. In other words, here’s a picture of the scene, the situation.

All the other steps follow that first one: once you know the situation and are seeing it with clear eyes (as clear as possible) then you can imagine what it might look like, set up the conditions for success, think about what parts will be hard and get support or help, and call on courage.

But that first step, the foundation…I have found it to be the key.

In fact, there is never, ever a guarantee of the change…you may have noticed. Even if VOWS are made…it doesn’t always mean they are kept.

Without looking closely, without understanding and opening to what is, and questioning some of the stress associated with the current status quo, then initiating change may really not “work”.

With The Work and self-inquiry, I actually have found that I don’t ever “need” to worry about how to make change, or initiate change, or produce change. In fact, stopping the idea that change MUST HAPPEN and giving up on that (if possible) winds up making it easier.

Weird but true. The situation becomes vivid, the beliefs I have about that situation become obvious, and then I take them to inquiry and something shifts that is separate from the part of Me, Myself and I that believes it has to change.

“I need to make a change”.

Is that true? YES! I’ve been smoking for years now when I know it’s terrible for my health! I hate my job! I’m bored in my relationship! I have to lose weight! I want to see the world! I need more money! Look at all the evidence!

I once was dating someone who every time I was with him, I had a pretty uncomfortable time. I was scared, unsure of myself, he seemed to have big outbursts of sudden anger, he would say “I don’t like you” and I would stay. He was super clear. I kept going out with him, communicating with him on the phone. I wondered why I didn’t say No. Everyone advised me to end the relationship.

But could I absolutely KNOW that I needed to change and get outta that relationship? I notice that I didn’t…and I notice that there were small changes and awarenesses happening even without me getting involved and saying goodbye.

I needed to be there just as long as I was there, just enough time to learn what I was really there for, the dynamics that took place, what I was believing to be true about me, about relationships, about dating.

Looking back, it was courageous of me to stay. I didn’t chop it off before it even grew into insight and freedom.

I needed to be there long enough to see with compassionate eyes, with love and joy.

One day, I knew to say goodbye. That day I knew. Even though I had thought about it many many times before. That day I knew, with love and genuine gratitude. I learned so very much.

And something inside me was willing to see what the next mystery was like….alone? Other dates? It didn’t matter, I didn’t know.

Today, you can notice one thing you think needs to change in your life, and then look at it. Ask yourself why you want that? Pretend you never heard of this need-for-change before and there is nothing to compare it to, no advice from others.

Only you. You are the universal voice for whatever you’re noticing. You are free to do something new or different in the next couple of hours, or not. Observing it all, not forcing.

No argument with what is.

“The Work doesn’t say what anyone should or shouldn’t do. We simply ask: What is the effect of arguing with reality? How does it feel? This Work explores the cause and effect of attaching to painful thoughts, and in that investigation we find our freedom. To simply say that we shouldn’t argue with reality is just to add another story, another philosophy or religion. It hasn’t ever worked.”~Byron Katie

Your amazing mind can see great things. It’s an “understanding” machine. Allow everything to be the way it is, and feel the whole entire universe supporting you on a journey.

Question your painful thoughts about what is. Without plans. See what happens.

“When we maintain awareness, whether we know it or not, healing is taking place…a door that has been shut begins to open…As the door opens, we see that the present is absolute and that, in a sense, the whole universe begins right now, in each second. And the healing of life is in that second of simple awareness…Healing is always just being here, with a simple mind.”~ Charlotte Joko Beck

Simply be aware. Write down the thoughts that repeat themselves and are painful. Nothing more is needed. You can do it.

Love, Grace

P.S. If you’re contemplating joining a group, together staying in awareness and studying the mind…we start in only 2 months with A Year Of Inquiry For The Addictive Mind. Ooooh, it’s gonna be good. Click right below on the top of the list to read about it. Payment plan available, just ask.

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Outer Ducks and Inner Ducks

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Lately in the past year, I’ve been asked by many people for sessions in how to market, or grow a business, or get clients, or create workshops, or for copies of my curriculum.

Quite a few people think I’ve really gotten my ducks in a row, as the saying goes.

So odd, I’ve had a funny feeling about it…..like “your’re askin’ ME? I have no idea!”

I realize of course I DO have ideas, many of them, and I am virtually bursting with energy and joy and eagerness to learn….and honestly, even if it sounds hokey, the feeling of being of great service.

When I work with people who have had enormous struggles with weight, body acceptance, cravings for food, compulsive and emotional eating….I stopped talking about the actual details of the food a long time ago.

In other words, I knew not to talk about diet, nutrition, calories, raw vs cooked, vegan, meat, junk food, sugar, wheat, dairy….or whatever else has been educational and so important for people.

Those topics fill whole master’s degrees in nutrition and cellular biology. Each person is unique and every single body has its own path. All kinds of things contribute to what works and what doesn’t.

There are incredible experts in the world who can really, really help with this piece…it’s the part where you get your outer ducks together.

You research, read, consult experts, and land on your personal approach to food. You feel what it is for your body, based on many contributing factors. I have loved, for example, learning about ayurvedic medicine. But that is NOT for everyone.

My skill and passion is in getting the inner ducks in a row.

If someone said “tell me what you eat all day every day” then I know they are feeling really shaky about all the outer messages about what is right, wrong, good, bad, best, or worst way to eat. They don’t know that they can find out what’s best for them.

It’s normal to feel super crazy uncertain about all of it. Especially when we’ve lost any sense of inner trust with ourselves. Especially when something is new and we Don’t Know Anything.

But what if you just arrived from another planet, and you had no idea which food (or marketing) was “good” or “bad”, and you knew this universe was friendly, and you’re ready for the adventure of learning?

What if everything edible had some beauty in it, and there was no danger of making a mistake, or missing something, or doing it wrong?

What if you learned only what was appealing to study, without any “shoulds” or “have-to’s”.

You might be like me, and give up reading nutrition and diet books (at least for now). Although I’m grateful for the knowledge I gained from the ones I did read.

You might also be NOT like me, and become an amazing dietician, offering people ideas and education and saving them years of time and energy.

Running a business and working with people one-to-one and creating workshops and marketing and writing….all of these pieces of what I know have been like the diet/nutrition side of success. The end result, the outer duck activity. Not really my forte or what I find as fun.

With marketing and running a business, I am a baby. I’ve learned a ton, I’ve tossed out stuff, I’ve found some things very appealing, I’ve found others smelly.

I’ve questioned my thinking.

My own little path, landing here on this planet and starting to learn and read and gather and research about how people offer service in exchange for making a living. Mixing it all in with my unique interests.

If you are on the path of service and you are “in business” for yourself, and especially if you’re new at it, you may have lots of questions…

….but I say here as a reminder, remember to look at your inner reasons for feeling overwhelmed, or uncertain, or like you don’t know.

Yes, you will and can read, take classes, go to lectures, consult professionals.

But inside, get those inner ducks in a row, and everything will be easier and things will become clear.

Who would you be without your story that you don’t know what to do (and you should) or that you don’t have business or sales experience (its too hard to learn) or that you feel too scared of rejection or that you just need to know the right business “diet” and then all will be well?

You might encounter today the one little interesting step you can take in building your business that has total integrity for you.

You might feel the joy of DIY (doing it yourself) and creating out of nothing something that makes a difference.

“A good traveler has no fixed plans and is not intent upon arriving. A good artist lets his intuition lead him wherever it wants. A good scientist has freed himself of concepts and keeps his mind open to what is.”~Tao Te Ching #27

I know that whoever you are, whatever work you do, whatever business you’re starting, whatever body you have, whatever relationship you’re in or out of….you are in exactly the right place, right now, with the right amount of love and knowledge, and a mind that can question itself.

To think otherwise is very stressful. I speak from experience.

Who would you be without the thought that you need to do something or add something to yourself or get something….or else you will fail?

“As soon as you grant this moment its right to be, there’s total stillness.”~Adyashanti

Love, Grace

P.S. If you’re ready to work on the Inner Ducks and see if they at least begin to assemble into a row (ha)…then the next Earning Money class starts in June on Thursday evenings Pacific time. We get deep into all the stressful thoughts we’re having about what we need more of, or less of, to be successful (and what is success or failure, anyway?) Doing what you do, whether at a job or in business, with freedom, is more fun than doing it because you should, you need to, or you have to. Click below on the Earning Money link to register. This class fills these days, limited to 10 people max.

 

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The Power of Two (Or More)

Last Friday the telegroup “Turning Relationship Hell To Heaven” met for our fourth session, out of eight. What a wonderful group of inquirers!

One thing several people on the call commented on were the strides they feel they are making in their internal inquiry as they connect with others, as opposed to the time they’ve spent doing The Work all by themselves.

Ooooh boy, do I know that one.

Sitting by myself, even after all these years, my mind wants to move as fast as a runaway train.

Sitting with my own mind also reminds me of Einstein’s famous quote that “no problem can be solved from the same level of consciousness that created it.”

DOH!

I know this is one of the reasons I am in this profession, doing this facilitating, being with others.

My own mind, left to its imagination, creativity, nuttiness and tendency to go off the rails gets back on track speedy quick with the presence of someone else.

I can empathize and relate to everyone who comes to be facilitated. I have never found someone who has had thoughts that I have not had. And the wonderful part is that they come along with their thoughts and bring them to my door, and I LOVE the opportunity.

I don’t have to wait to go through that experience myself. I don’t have to live through it first hand, like they did. I hold the space with them, and we look together.

It’s completely selfish. Someone comes to me, and I feel so honored and happy to sit with them in whatever dark, awful, horrible pain they are experiencing or picturing or living in…because with TWO of us…the questions get answered.

I’ve said it before, but it’s one of my favorite quotes from the bible “where two or more are gathered in my name, there I am in the midst”.

The “I” of course being christ, the mysterious, the center, the divine, the holy, the sacred.

Amazing. Eye-opening.

In Buddhism, this is called sangha. A group journeying together.

Today, if it appeals, allow yourself to speak with great honestly to someone else on the planet. If you want to do The Work, call the Help Line (www.thework.com) or call someone to facilitate you. Email me to set up a session.

Or sign up for a class (just look at the long list below!)

Or come to Breitenbush Hotsprings and hang out with an amazing group of individuals who are ready to dive in to questioning beliefs about being here on the planet in a body…all the dangers, turmoil, worry, pain, sickness, trauma, imperfections, consternation.

I love that it doesn’t ultimately matter what you are looking at…whether its a body, or a person, or money, or the vacuuming….if you feel sadness or fear or anger when you look, then there’s an opportunity there to do The Work.

“Taking refuge in the sangha means taking refuge in the brotherhood and sisterhood of people who are committed to taking off their armor. “~Pema Chodron

Love, Grace

P.S. Another workshop coming up in Seattle May 3-4 that combines The Work, the body and movement (Nia) and emotional healing using Systemic Constellations. More on that soon. It will be an awesome powerful sangha.

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It’s Not Your Fault

One of the most excruciating, shameful thoughts that a person can have about a troubling relationship or situation is “it’s my fault”.

Even if you know it’s not ALL your fault, and there were many factors involved, your mind will scan the scene for your part in it, what you did wrong, how you could have done it better.

Some of us are more prone to this than others. We may find some control in thinking about how we can fix ourselves, since the rest of the world is hopeless to fix.

It’s not you….it’s me!

I was facilitating a sweet client last week who said that sometimes when he does The Work, he is flattened by the turnarounds….when he finds the opposite to his thinking and the new, opposite concept is very self-critical.

Byron Katie says that every turnaround should feel like a kiss, not a slap.

In other words, if I think “she is a mean, lying, betrayer” and I find the turnaround at the end of my work process “I am a mean, lying, betrayer”….then I don’t condemn myself to hell.

Instead, I see how I am human, and so was she. Everyone being themselves, doing the best they can with what they know.

Everyone is doing the absolute best they can in any given moment. If they knew how to do it better, THEY WOULD. Including you.

The beliefs come into place sometimes at a very young age. The beliefs are all set up based on what we learn and what others have done and what we’re observing from the world around us.

We feel pain or stress and we defend, we get scared, we panic, we shut down, we do whatever we can to brace against our beliefs or our conclusions….

…..and then with The Work we can look again and see if we can find a different viewpoint.

As we look back at situations that are troubling, we can review and understand them differently, by asking the Four Questions:

  • is it true, what I am thinking as I remember that situation?
  • can I absolutely know that what I am thinking is TRUE?
  • how do I react when I believe that?
  • who would I be if I couldn’t even have that stressful thought, who would I be without the thought at all?
  • turning my thoughts around to the opposite, could that ALSO be true?

It’s never all black or white, it’s never 100% in one camp, or one way.

Every human being has some loving quality or capacity for awareness.

Even that person who was so terrible, and you got in their way somehow….if they knew better how to handle their life situation, they would have.

No one truly wants to hurt others. People seem to be very drawn to love and joy, have you noticed? Some of us get so mixed up when it seems that those around us are unhappy, that we start to think we did something wrong, or we wish desperately we could help them.

Violence, lying, betrayal, judgment, aggression, paralysis….all of these are feelings and behaviors in an attempt to get safe, to get back on solid ground.

There is an assumption that something is terribly wrong and the way to get it right is with force, or secrecy, or attack, or self-improvement (or self-condemnation).

Perhaps we had it modeled to us or we concluded that we need to lie, or be judgmental, or be tough, or hold things in, or attack ourselves and not other people, in order to remain safe, in order not to be terrified.

But what if we did not believe that what happened is anyone’s fault? Not 100%, even if it seems like it and the person did something pretty “big” to change the course of things.

No one’s fault. Not theirs, and not yours….not the universe or God’s fault either.

“The enlightened mind is never separate from another mind, as there really is only one mind (if any). Not ever. The open mind always understands its own nature and is always open to more understanding, in the ever-shifting expansion of its own creation.”~ Byron Katie

Doing The Work and finding your own innocence can be tough. You may feel vulnerable, you may feel small, you may feel so very sad. You may push away the idea that it’s not your fault. It may seem so puzzling that it happened…if it’s not my fault, then why? WHY?!

But you may enter new territory. If you let yourself open to the idea that none of this is anyone’s fault….you may be filled with love. You may take in love. For that other person who hurt you….for yourself.

Below is a 4 minute clip from Good Will Hunting, the beautiful movie of an honest healing relationship between client and counselor. (Thank you Jack for sending it to me).

Who would you be without the thought that it really is not anyone’s fault?

Click here and know I’m giving you a big hug:http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UYa6gbDcx18

Love, Grace

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Willing To Be Hated

The other day I received an email from a wonderful inquirer who had taken my parenting class in the past.

“How do I handle such disrespect!?!” she asked.

That moment when a child, whether age four or age fourteen or twenty-four, says something disrespectful and your reaction is instant, big and full of feeling….what’s going on there?

What is actually so disturbing about this disrespectful moment?

And the reaction is so fast, so strong….it’s like there is an immediate “NOOOOO!” rising up from the inside somewhere.

How dare you say that! You will not speak to me that way! Go to your room! Get out of my sight! You are grounded! Arrrrgghghghgh! 

Not that I would know anything about that kind of reaction. But I’ve read quite a bit about it and seen it in the movies (heh heh).

The most wonderful way of looking at this split second of reacting with the massive No is to break it down in very slow motion, and of course, inquire.

So, here come those words, that facial expression, that behavior. They are expressed out of that person over there (who happens to be someone you love, your child).

If you turned the sound off of the movie, and replayed the moment, and looked at it from every angle…what do you think it means when someone is doing that?

For me, I had to become quite still when considering this, so that I wasn’t reacting anymore. It was lovely to become still. And hard. Something inside me wanted to stay AGAINST that scene, and that person.

If you become still, you can’t be so against the situation. You are more objective, you are looking. Almost like you’re a scientist studying human behavior and wondering what is inspiring this particular kind of behavior.

So what does it mean when that beloved child of yours says that “mean” thing (that you are interpreting as disrespectful)?

Usually, I noticed that when I had the surge of anger, frustration, defense coming through me, I was believing the following thoughts:

  • she doesn’t respect me, and that means I haven’t earned respect by becoming scary, powerful, angry, firm, brilliant or kind enough
  • she is defying me, so she thinks I’m stupid, wrong, mistaken, or unimportant
  • he doesn’t love me, he doesn’t care about me, he is not motivated to have concern for my feelings so this means I am not interesting/helpful/powerful in his life
  • she thinks I am a bad parent, she would prefer another mom
  • chaos is occuring, I don’t know what’s happening, and this scares me
  • he thinks I have no worth
  • I don’t matter
  • she is not doing what I say, so this means I will not get what I want or need
  • I will be abandoned, I am alone
  • I can’t handle this
  • I am not lovable, smart, or mature enough

These thoughts create a deep, sinking, gut-wrenching feeling that almost has no words. The beliefs are all piled and stuck together like a ball of yarn, intricately connected.

The ultimate view of the self is “worthless” or “powerless” and being someone who has no control over this child, this moment, this experience, this commentary.

The thing is, it’s TRUE that we don’t have any control.

Every life lived in its own unique way, with a unique timeline. We can’t save them, or they save us. In the big scheme of things, in the matter of life and death, we are basically powerless.

In questioning these thoughts and looking at them from every angle, turning them all around and considering the opposite views….what does that look like? What happens with our feeling of being so against that moment of “disrespect”?

What if we stop believing that those words, behaviors or actions MEAN we are bad or that THEY are bad or that this is a big disastrous mess?

I notice fear, simple fear, is inside the core of these beliefs. If I look with care at this moment when I am feeling the fear, and look at every thought with acceptance, and turn it all around:

  • she does respect me, she is expressing herself to ME, she is exposing her true inner anger, fear, sadness, terror to ME, she is inviting me in, even if it seems brusque or harsh
  • she is defying me, so she thinks I’m smart, right, NOT mistaken, important–she cares about my opinion, she wants me to KNOW her sincerely and that she does not see things the same as me–she thinks I’m powerful enough to defy
  • he does love me, he does care about me, he is deeply motivated to have NO concern for my feelings because he is finding his own opinions, or knows my opinions are not right for HIS particular world. I am, in fact, very powerful and interesting to him, so much so that he needs to detach himself in order to find his own way.
  • she thinks I am a good parent, she loves me inherently and wants no other mom (I am the one who thinks of myself as a bad parent, imperfect, not doing it right)
  • chaos is occuring, I don’t know what’s happening, and this does NOT scare me
  • he thinks I have great worth, that he has great worth, and wants me to see this as well
  • I do matter, so much
  • she is not doing what I say, so this means I need to get what I want or need in some OTHER way, to take care of myself and show that I am doing this, to model self-care
  • I will always be connected, I am never alone–I am with myself if I am not with my child
  • I am lovable, smart, and mature enough to be in the presence of this younger human
  • I can handle this

Byron Katie suggests that anyone who is yelling at you may need to be speaking loudly for some important reason.

I know with my daughter, I would guess what she liked, wanted or needed before she could even tell me.

I haven’t liked it when someone assumes they know something about me.

I stand before my children and feel what it is like, from the inside out, to be OK with who they are and who I am, even when they are very angry with me.

One of my favorite professors in graduate school for Applied Behavioral Science long ago said in a lecture on Family Systems Counseling “You know what it takes to be a parent? Being willing to be hated.”

Funny, as I do The Work and “allow” them to be furious, or to correct me, or to say what they really feel….they turn out to not need to say it so loudly, or slam a door, or hide from me.

And I’m sure I’ll get the opportunity again to “work” on it.

“Our parents, our children, our spouses, and our friends will continue to press every button we have, until we realize what it is that we don’t want to know about ourselves, yet. They will point us to our freedom every time.” ~ Byron Katie

One thing I know…is that I want to know everything about myself that is possible to know.

Even if you’re not sure you’re going to like what you find out about yourself, try it anyway. You may find much compassion for yourself, and love.

Love, Grace

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Have A Body? Lose Control

Only a few more weeks of the early-registration fee of $295 for the Breitenbush retreat focusing on the issues we have with our bodies….more on that in a minute! After May 1st the registration fee goes up to $350. We have an amazing group forming. The retreat is limited to 14. The fee I just mentioned is the tuition…everyone coming phones Breitenbush to reserve your chosen accommodations (tent platform or your own bungalow?) and delicious meals.

Click HERE to read all about it.

What does it mean to do The Work on The Body?

Well….have you ever had a stressful thought about your body? A thought that when you think it, you experience discomfort of any kind?

Spending some time with the stress about having a body like yours can be quite revealing. Thoughts about the body are so critical, agonizing, and painful…and then, we’ll have thoughts about ourselves and how we really shouldn’t HAVE these critical thoughts about our bodies.

First the thought, as I pass the glass window on the street “gosh, your butt looks too big” or “wow, your face really is looking old these days”. Then the thought “I can’t believe you’re not OVER criticizing your looks at your age, you should know not to care”. Then the thought “I need to relax, take care of my superficial thoughts, handle my health better”.

And so on. The cycle of “thinking” in a compulsive way along the lines of things not being good the way they are.

Especially this body. So imperfect and so frail.

Bodies can be the entry point into awakening like no other. With this thing I live in, called a body, I am aware of my need to be attractive to other humans, my desire to be attractive to myself, my frailty, pain, weakness, the smallness or temporariness of being in this body..death and impermanence.

My thoughts about my body are, in fact, thoughts about life and death. They all lead to the most profound, similar place.

For me, the mind can start spewing thoughts so quickly on the body, it’s faster than a speeding bullet!

  • I wish I were twenty years younger again
  • I don’t have enough time (here on the planet)
  • my hip should stop hurting
  • I need to do yoga, stop aging, have zero pain
  • dying is not going to be fun or easy
  • I hate when other people die
  • I hate feeling bad, I never want to get sick again
  • my face shouldn’t have wrinkles, my hair shouldn’t turn gray, my feet shouldn’t hurt

The list goes on. There are cures, too, around every corner. You can start in on all kinds of ways to “solve” the “problem” of having this condition.

And yet, as I inquire over time, even on the dumbest most mundane thoughts about my body, I get such insight and love for this thing that it becomes simple, easy, and not a source of regret or wishful thinking.

I love being exactly in this body, at this time, at this age, with these little feelings and conditions. It’s magnificent…it’s surrender. I see how it does not take changing or altering this body to experience joy, love, acceptance, connection, intimacy and peace.

Doing The Work on the body leads to the grandest, most wonderful questions and awareness that I am not this body, there is much more here….and that for some reason, this whole thing is temporary.

What if your thoughts looked instead for the benefits in your condition? The opposite sort of experiences?

  • I wish I were twenty years older…I’d be closer to that fun moment called death (or croaking) that I’ve heard a zillion things about but will only experience once
  • I have all the time I would ever need on this planet, in this lifetime
  • my hip should keep hurting, it’s a sensation that’s speaking
  • I don’t need to do anything, I need to keep aging (that would be weird to stop aging), I need to have great pain and notice I can learn to relax with it, and that it leaves
  • dying is going to be the easiest thing I’ve ever done…I won’t even be doing it (finally it won’t be up to me, kinda like life if I really think about it)
  • I experience great love when other people die (so far, always true)
  • I’m open to feeling physically bad, I’m open to getting sick again…there are advantages and I can find them
  • my face should have wrinkles, my hair should turn gray, my feet should hurt…I get to have this amazing aging experience in this life (vs die young).

By having this body, as it does exactly what it does, I get to see how nature works in this particular form. I get to respond to this particular body, I get to feel what reality/God/source is offering through this body.

I get to see how much more I am than this body. This mind doing its amazing thing…wondering, exploring, feeling, sensing. Body and mind and beyond all interacting. A great mystery.

The most amazing thing is how free I am, even with this body. Everyone is.

“Now sweetheart, close your eyes, and go to the place where you are very, very ill….Now see if you can locate the place that doesn’t care. The place that really isn’t bothered by it. It’s there. See if you can locate it—the part of you that is unaffected. The part of you that just watches. Go back to the last time you were in so much pain and see if you can locate it……Go back with it again. It’s a part—no matter how much pain you’re in—it’s witnessing, watching…..Good. That’s the one that cares nothing for control. So let that one grow. It cares nothing for control.”~Byron Katie 

Inquiring into your thoughts about your body, you may find very quickly that you are inquiring about what it means to be alive, and to know you will die.

For me, this is spiritual awakening. Surrender, gratitude…the freedom of not caring.

Do The Work on your body and have a glorious time caring nothing for what everyone else thinks, what you think. (Join us at Breitenbush).

“If you want to become whole, let yourself be partial. If you want to become straight, let yourself be crooked. If you want to become full, let yourself be empty. If you want to be reborn, let yourself die. If you want to be given everything, give everything up.”~Tao Te Ching #22

Love, Grace

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Blowing Oscillating Beliefs

This morning I was looking at my notes from a past teleclass on Earning Money.

My amazing group of fellow-travelers inquiring into Money, Work, Jobs and whatever this thing is called “Business” had a fabulous session in our second teleclass together.

We were looking at what we really, really need with regard to work/money/business.

I need to expand myself, my company, my capacity (for energy, enthusiasm, productivity) or my bank account. I must expand! I must grow! I must drive!

There is such a deep belief, really a whole system of thinking, that I must push myself, discipline myself, organize myself, focus on peak performance, plan, set goals, and dig out what is “wrong” with me in order to GET OVER THERE.

Over there is wealthy, powerful, secure, productive, famous, successful!

Over here could use some improvement. Over here is confusing, messy, chaotic, unpredictable.

I loved it when one participant used the word “oscillate”. I had an instant image of an oscillating fan. Push the “on” button and it starts going back and forth across the room with little whirrs and clicks.

The mind flip-flops the same way. Or shall we say, it blows!

Thoughts going that way, thoughts going this way, spanning the whole entire horizon.

When I believe that I MUST push myself to get anywhere important or positive, then of course I am focused on how to push myself.

I may secretly notice that I don’t really like being pushed that much…nor do I respond exactly to being pushed, some of the time.

Hard to relax completely, hard to force myself to do everything on my list. BOTH are difficult, stressful, not really that fun.

But I have to push, I have to force or cajole, in order to “make” something happen….right?

Otherwise, my true nature is to be a worthless piece of junk laying around by the pool all day. Even if there is no pool!

If I don’t MAKE stuff happen, then I will be offering nothing to the world, interested only in me and my comfort. Interested only in getting through this life as easily as possible, without hardship. Avoiding hard knocks.

One big non-productive lump.

NOT TRUE.

In our class, we all tapped into who we would be without the story that we have to push or make an effort at all, not only just about getting money or building a business or being a great employee….but for any other deep desire.

What a weird, unusual, foreign concept for so many of us hard-drivers!

What a gift, to relax so completely that you get to find out who you would be without the belief that you HAVE to do something?

“The more you can be completely in the NOW, the more you realize that you’re in the center of the world, standing in the middle of a sacred circle.” ~ Pema Chodron  

The beautiful thing is, we all wind up doing things, being in this body in our circumstance, in this place. We have an idea to call a person to ask for a job, or get help from someone to write a resume, or we google something about how to make online flyers, and it’s fun. Or we get up to go to the bathroom. Or go out for a walk.

Life unfolds itself, and money comes and goes.

“I do NOT have to push or force anything to grow, whether with money, or awakening, or learning”—How exciting to find that this is actually truer!

What are examples in your own life that NOT pushing, NOT forcing, NOT being a task-master still leads to growth?

“The Tao is always at ease. It overcomes without competing, answers without speaking a word, arrives without being summoned, accomplishes without a plan. Its net covers the whole universe. And though its meshes are wide, it doesn’t let a thing slip through.” ~ Tao Te Ching #73

Love, Grace

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This Memory Is Safe

This morning I was remembering an old friend who at one time I loved very much.

I noticed the image entered my mind, I could see the face of the person, even though its been very long since I’ve seen them in real life.

For a moment, before “thinking” really started…I just remembered. There is the sweet face, their fun voice, their smile. The pleasure at laughing, sharing intimate truths, asking questions.

And then (hear Beethoven’s 5th duh-duh-duh-DUM) sadness entered my experience.

Then the image of ANOTHER person I haven’t seen in ages who also caused tumultuous, uncertain, or angry feelings within.

I guess the two people reminded me of each other. And the little sadness visit following right behind.

But with The Work, with self-inquiry and a great interest in truth and in understanding my relationship with life (that has these kinds of people in it) I become curious very quickly about the sad feeling.

  • I miss that person
  • that relationship ended terribly
  • that was a totally unpleasant (or horrible) incident
  • I can’t believe it went that way
  • that person is a whack-job, has a personality disorder, is an addict, is sick, (etc)
  • I shouldn’t have gotten so close to that person
  • I should have gotten closer to that person
  • they should apologize
  • I should apologize

Oh boy.

Wonderful to have inquiry. Being able to look at something that produces even a wee bit of pain, of any kind, is so powerful.

Sometimes, the memories hurt….but if you look at them and inquire, I can just about guarantee that you’ll be better off down the road (or in five minutes) than if you suppress and distract yourself from looking.

So I allowed that image of that person to float there in my consciousness. There they are.

That relationship didn’t end well…or it ended and I’m sad…or it’s just an overall big mess when I think about it….IS THAT TRUE?

Yep.

But can I absolutely KNOW that it’s true that it was terrible, shouldn’t have happened, that it was a mistake or a waste of time, or a tragedy? Can I know that 100%, beyond a shadow of a doubt?

No, not at all.

How do I react when I believe that the person I’m thinking of shouldn’t have been in my life, or that it shouldn’t have gone that way, or that the whole thing sucked, or that we did things wrong and made mistakes?

I get so, so, so sad. I get angry, I feel stress, pain, despair, sick to my stomach.

Who would I be without the thought that the relationship I had with that person was terrible, or ended tragically, or wasn’t good enough? Who would I be without the thought that I missed something, I should have done it differently…or they should have done it differently?

I’d be open, empty space. In a good way. I’d be here now. I’d be here, in this body, with a mind that is remembering a person…(which is amazing in itself that we can remember so vividly and so well).

I’d see that person, in this moment, and say “hello”. I’d feel connected to that memory in my head.

I would feel love, reaching across the cosmos without telephones or email or star-trek devices. I’d just notice that love is here, trust and love.

I’d notice how quiet it is in this moment, remembering that person.

In inquiry I would then practice finding the reasons why the opposite of my painful thoughts might be true:

  • I don’t miss that person, but I do love and appreciate that person…I somehow missedmyself in the middle of that relationship
  • that relationship ended perfectly on time, with excellent drama and clarity
  • that was a totally pleasant, entertaining (or fantastic) incident, an amazing story, full of wild and wonderful learning
  • I can believe it went that way, because it did
  • That person is a being themselves, and it’s OK, and my own thinking has been whacky, disordered, addictive and sick when it comes to that person
  • I should have gotten so close to that person, it was incredible and brought me awareness beyond my wildest dreams
  • I should have gotten closer to that person…I held back and wasn’t honest sometimes
  • they should not apologize, unless they really want to for themselves
  • I should apologize, to myself, to them…for all the disruption and fear and anxiety I produced by believing my own narrow-minded thoughts

I love Byron Katie’s words “when someone leaves, you’ve been spared”.

It is a grand, accepting trust in the universe going the way it goes.

That relationship lasted just the right amount of time on this planet, in this lifetime. It is just what I needed, in that period.

Now, for this moment, all that is necessary is the memory and the image of that person, apparently….not their actual body.

“There is no greater illusion than fear, no greater wrong than preparing to defend yourself, no greater misfortune than having an enemy. Whoever can see through all fear will always be safe.” ~ Tao Te Ching #46

Love, Grace

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Who Do You Imagine You Would Be Without THAT Thought?

I was reading the other day about Dr. Franz Mesmer who lived in Paris in the 1700s and practiced a form of healing, as a physician, that he invented…called Animal Magnetism.

People paid tons of money for his healing work. They traveled from long distances away. He created quite a hubbub. So much so that the word “mesmerized” was invented.

He apparently offered laying on of hands, the building of “magnetic” energy, and hypnotic guidance. People swooned and had convulsive fits and instant healings.

Some investigations occurred, and many concluded that his techniques worked because of the power of the human mind to IMAGINE.

There goes that mind again….it’s so creative, so powerful!

Sometimes the scientific, logical approach will say…well, if it’s being imagined then it’s not REAL.

But what is reality? How do we know what is real and what is not real?

I notice that my perception of situations change completely over time. One day, I see the world as sunny, joyful, exciting, adventurous, full of infinite possibilities. Another day, I see the world as dark, boring, annoying, depressing, volatile and uncertain (although strangely enough, that is becoming quite rare, without me trying).

Both are real for me, right in that moment. That’s my particular reality.

And, I have had my experience completely turn around and switch to the entire opposite perception, by changing my mind.

That’s what self-inquiry is all about.

“The world is nothing but my perception of it. I see only through myself. I hear only through the filter of my story.” ~ Byron Katie

What about all the things that happen that seem beyond me, beyond my capacity to create them…those uncomfortable or terrible things, those wonderful or astonishingly beautiful things?

Well. Here’s an interesting exercise. An idea I got from doing The Work and looking at my thinking over and over again:

What if all that happens is within me, not outside of me? What if all of it is born from some mysterious place, creating itself, a fantastic invention, an amazing imagination, and I am connected to it inherently?

The ups, the downs, the frightening, the wonderful….

What if you could question the belief system “I’m just a little peon in this world who has no control over anything? A little victim of this crazy place?”

Who would you be without that thought? If you IMAGINED being someone who is not a little peon with no control over anything, not a little victim, not in a crazy, frightening, terrible place?

But instead what if you imagined the turnaround to be as true, or truer? I am a celebrant of this world that is born out of me, who has no need to control or see anything as horrendous, who opens to everything, who is a magnificent, powerful, loving entity, in an exciting, constantly changing playground.

How would you live your life if that’s what you were imagining?

Maybe your reality would change…who knows? Maybe you would be healed. Maybe you would be totally in love with NOT being healed.

You’d say “bring it on” without fighting it. There would be nothing to argue against.

“The great Tao flows everywhere. All things are born from it, yet it doesn’t create them. It pours itself into its work, yet it makes no claim. It nourishes infinite worlds, yet it doesn’t hold on to them. Since it is merged with all things and hidden in their hearts, it can be called humble. Since all things vanish into it and it alone endures, it can be called great. It isn’t aware of its greatness; thus it is truly great.” ~ Tao Te Ching #34  

Love, Grace

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The Prison of Waiting For A Phone Call

Recently I facilitated a wonderful inquirer on the belief that someone should call her back. I remember well having that thought myself.

Picture that situation….you’ve left a voice mail. You’ve emailed. Perhaps you’ve sent a card or a hand-written note.

You’re pretty sure you have the correct address, the correct phone number, the correct email.

No response. Nothing comes back. Phone doesn’t ring. No email from that person. No text message. Nada.

“In human intercourse the tragedy begins, not when there is misunderstanding about words, but when silence is not understood.”~ Henry David Thoreau 

Without a mind that questions what it is thinking….the unquestioned assuming mind comes up with many scenarios for what might be going on.

  • he is too busy with other people to call me back (he doesn’t care about me)
  • she doesn’t like me anymore (I did something wrong)
  • he is rejecting me
  • she is ignoring me
  • I am hurt
  • they are hurt
  • it would be better if they made contact, I know this is true
  • that unresponsive person is an addict on a binge, out of control, has entered the “using” zone and they are avoiding me
  • he is not safe
  • I need to explain myself, something has been misunderstood

And of course, the mind will try to obsessively find out WHAT has been misunderstood and WHY and HOW.

I loved discovering at some point in the process of growing up, through inquiry, that all these assumptions are totally unknown.

I want it to fall into the “things are good with that person and me” zone for my own personal ego. That may sound harsh. But really, the only reason I want them to call back is so that me-myself-and-I can feel better.

I want to feel better, and the way that will happen is THEY WILL CONTACT ME.

Is that actually true? Really? Are you sure you will feel better? Are you sure that contact with that person is a good thing….better than No Contact?

The first time I did The Work on this concept….I had taken my cell phone into the bathroom with me “just in case I missed that person’s phone call”.

I was in the BATHROOM.

I saw myself in the mirror, holding the phone and barely able to put it down, checking to make sure the volume was turned up, ready to speed through my shower “just in case I missed that person’s phone call”.

My entire psyche was focused on waiting, wanting, getting, hoping for that incoming phone call.

And something inside me said “this is prison”.

I wanted freedom. I wanted to question the belief that “I need, want, hope, would love that person to make contact”.

Did I need it?

No. I was living my life, having a beautiful amazing day. I was with myself, in an empty little cottage. There was silence, beautiful silence (except for my screaming thoughts). I was alive, awake, noticing the air, the colors, the temperature.

Without the thought that I need, want, hope for a call or think it would be better to get one….then this moment here, without a call in it, is just as fun as any moment with a call in it.

Without the thought that I want a phone call, or that just one text or email would make things better, I notice how incredibly fabulous this is, right here and now.

I get to take nice long, hot pleasant shower, without interruption.

By questioning my belief that someone should contact me…I found out the following startling turnarounds were truer than my original thoughts:

  • I AM too busy with other people to call myself back into sanity in the present moment
  • I don’t care about myself when I’m busy thinking that person doesn’t care about me
  • I am not liking myself in that moment, I’m thinking I’m deficient (I need that call!)
  • I did something right! I left a message, I emailed, I texted, I made the attempts to contact…and now I move on into more fun and love
  • I am rejecting myself, I am not exactly loving my own company in that moment when desperately waiting for a call
  • I am ignoring my own self and how interesting and fun I can be
  • I am not actually hurt…people come, people go, I love them coming and going
  • if they are hurt, that’s up to them to work through that, and they can let me know on their own time (and when and if they do, I can handle it)
  • it would NOT be better if they made contact, because this moment rocks by itself
  • that person has their life to live, it’s not my life. If they are off obsessing or being an addict, or being righteous or angry or unhappy….that’s their path
  • I don’t need to explain, fix, adjust, control or manipulate anything, I can relax and just love

To stop waiting for something is so radical, it’s like breaking out of prison.

Who would you be without your story that you want that thing to happen, that person to call?

“Nobody can hurt me without my permission.”~ Mahatma Gandhi 

Today in that moment, that one where you wanted contact (maybe you want it right now) look around and find examples of how you can handle this moment, without that person or that phone call in it.

Find how you are not missing love….love is right there with you, it doesn’t have to come in the form of that person or that thing you want.

Find out how you are supported, how your own company is awesome.

“It’s not your job to like me—it’s mine.”~Byron Katie

Love, Grace