Last week I was traveling and facilitating a retreat (in Oregon at Breitenbush Hotsprings Conference Center).
Yesterday I was out in the city to dance and meet friends for a birthday dinner.
We all move about, in and out of our houses. Food is out there, at home, on tables, and often easily acquired–especially for those in first world countries like me. Super abundance of food options and eating is all around.
When you’ve had an internal war with eating, your body image, or food itself….it often doesn’t feel good to be out away from home, and your safe refrigerator and pantry.
But who would you be without the belief you need to worry, you have to control the environment or the food, you must be anxious about you and food in any situation?
It doesn’t mean you don’t take good care of yourself and move towards what you need or away from what hurts when it comes to food and eating.
This is about finding truly, deeply what you need.
For me, it was always relaxation. Trust. Peace. Resting with what is. It doesn’t mean I’m passive and never speaking up for what I prefer or desire, or not acknowledging I’m hungry, or full.
When I relax fully, I’m actually free to ask for anything.
Here’s one of my favorite meditations or ideas to carry with me wherever I go. It’s called “Lie Down”.
Do it for real, on the floor or couch, or do it on the inside.
And see what happens with your fearful dilemmas about eating, not eating, foods, ingredients, body, fat, thin, weight.