As I walk through life (and sometimes run, I admit) in the past couple of years, one thing has been very, very, very transformative and awe-inspiring for me.
The way I relate to money.
The way money appears to relate to me.
As in, we’re having more fun together than we used to. Almost a love affair….but let’s not get carried away.
Now many people might think….
…..oh. What? She’s making money now? That’s what’s happening?
That MUST be what she means by having a love affair with money, if that’s what’s going on!
But check your assumptions about what a “love affair” actually is.
Is it all I-get-what-I-want-and-I-am-comfortable-at-all-times easy-peasy non-confrontational never-asking-you-to-grow kinda deal?
If that’s what you want with a love affair, there’s nothing wrong with that.
And, that’s not what I’m talking about.
Somewhere along the way in my life, I discovered through extreme fear and suffering (it took some yelling to wake me up) that what a truly deep, wild, fantastical, growth-inspiring love affair looked like with money….
….was to lose my need for it to go MY way.
(Secret hint: this is true about romantic love, other people, your family, and everything else in your entire life).
My way involved money always directing its attention towards ME.
Staying with me, giving to me, calling on me at all the right moments, showering me with appreciation, bringing me gifts, making it fun-fun-fun pleasure ALL the time, growing before my eyes, asking nothing or very little of me.
How did I react when I believed the thoughts that money doesn’t care about me personally when it was not acting the way I wanted, and it should, that money should stay with me and never challenge me, ever?
Twisted up in knots.
Terrified.
Angry.
With those thoughts, I felt small, tiny, and inconsequential. Unloved. Left behind. Less than others who had more money than me.
Who would I be without the belief that when money moves away….
….it means I’m abandoned, or unloved by money, or incompatible, or undeserving, or bad?
Without the belief that money is acting unacceptable, frightening?
That money is not doing as I wish, that it’s leaving me unhappy and all alone?
Who would I really be without these beliefs?
Holy smokes.
That’s an amazing feeling.
The lightness of allowing money to be as it is, moving the way it does!
To not “need” anyone, including money, to do it the way I want in order to be happy…..laughter-inducing.
The freedom to not have to depend on money to come to me in times of trouble…..incredible.
Turning the belief system around about money:
I do not need it to survive. Never have.
Money needs more of me, pouring myself into the world and meeting the world with joy, instead of the other way around.
Turning thoughts about needing more money around to the opposite (I don’t need more of it than I ever have) I notice I have abundance all around me, and its free for the noticing.
Grass, trees, sidewalks, parking places, bicycles at the gym, daylight hours, conversations, videos, furniture, long slabs of wood creating a floor, pieces of furniture, art, air to breathe.
Abundance everywhere I look.
Including the direction “in”.
“The Tao never does anything, yet through it all things are done. If powerful men and women could center themselves in it, the whole world would be transformed by itself, in its natural rhythms. People would be content with their simple, everyday lives, in harmony, and free of desire. When there is no desire, all things are at peace.” ~ Tao Te Ching
Money Love Story 8 week telecourse Thursdays 2-3:30 pm beginning on January 14th. So much fun to watch it fill up with awesome people. We will have a great time investigating money with exercises, questions and prompts that allow you to see what you think, that’s hurting, and change your relationship with money.
Much love,
Grace