Speaking of batty…
One of my favorite gurus is my 14 year old daughter. Fourteen going on ten. Or…fourteen going on 75.
The comments and moods and behaviors coming from that amazing being, appearing as my daughter, change and swerve right and left, up and down like the way a bat flies.
Hmmm, who does this remind me of? Gosh! It just seems so familiar!
Oh. Yeah. That would be ME.
The mind is incredibly fast, tricky, working hard to solve problems and prevent mishaps.
I have found it to be true, so far, that everything that causes stress ultimately leads to me believing “It’s possible that I’m not safe. I need to live. What matters most is my happiness.”
The absolutely fastest, lazer-speed, cut-to-the-core way to handle anxiety, stress, pain, fear, anger towards this incredible14 year old who I encounter every single day is The Work.
I notice that clients working with children often feel the worst about writing about these young people in their care.
We aren’t supposed to feel rage, fury, grief, horror or shock with children! Then we’re evil like the people in the movie Chitty Chitty Bang Bang from the town of Vulgaria where children are abhorred by the king and queen!
Here are some of the thoughts I have questioned in the past:
- She shouldn’t raise her voice at me!
- She should do what I say!
- She should notice how messy her room is and clean it up!
- If I suggest that we do something fun together and she says “I don’t like doing that!” it means she doesn’t want to spend time with me or doesn’t care about me.
- I want her to like me
- She should not oppose me!
Even though I see what a dictator I am, I do not shut down and say “I am a terrible mother” because I have these thoughts. Instead, I allow my judgmental mind to have its say. I let it jump around all over the place hissing and spitting out all the mean, vicious, goofy, bossy, controlling thoughts!
NOW, I can really question, with open attention, compassion. No one is wrong, no one is terrible. Let’s look together. All is well. This is just mind, thinking itself into a batty frenzy.
And now this same mind can answer some amazing questions, starting with Is It True?
I have found that answering these four questions on my daughter’s words and actions have made me laugh so hard at myself and my dictatorship…now, life is way funnier and way more fun.
Living with a 14 year old teenager is absolute heaven. I’m in the presence of an incredible spiritual teacher. Showing me true love.
If your child is one of your stressors….write down your Vulgaria Voice judgments and come join us in the telegroup that starts next Tuesday! Laughter may be closer than you think!