Month: May 2013

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Annoying Advice-Givers

Pacific Northwesterners! Mini retreat on Saturday, May 18th 1:30 – 5:30 pm in northeast Seattle at Goldilocks Cottage. Give yourself a deep dive into the work for the afternoon. All levels welcome. Sign up by clicking HERE. $70 for your first time, $55 for your second.

Speaking of retreats….they are not exactly a simple “yes” for many people to jump on board.

So many possible considerations: the time, transportation, venue, cost….and there are anxious or annoying things that could happen.

Like Other People.

Gathering with other people has such profound potential for love, huge learning, combined energy, a shift of awareness, the group commitment to stay present and BE THERE. People gathered in one place at one time can offer each other such support, like no other anywhere.

AND the people you gather with can drive you bonkers, irritate the heck out of you, and/or stir up unpleasant thoughts and feelings.

Being a workshop addict…er, wait, I mean…since I’ve done TONS of workshops and training in my life, I’ve been at every kind of group gathering and every size of workshop and heard almost every kind of exercise or lecture-style you can imagine.

(I am REQUIRED to take workshops to earn continuing education credits as a Certified Counselor in Washington, just for the record…in case you think I can’t stop! Ha!)

One thing I do every time I offer a workshop or mini-retreat or longer residential retreat is GET FEEDBACK. As much as possible.

Over time, the workshops get more and more clear, better, lazer-focused and satisfying.

Kind of funny when what The Work itself is all about unraveling stressful thinking, being here now, without necessarily trying to get it better, clearer or more satisfying.

Byron Katie speaks a lot, however, about asking questions, hearing peoples’ answers, getting honest authentic feedback, and taking in information that is real and direct. Plus giving it.

Katie loves to role play with people who are not sure how to ask for or give feedback, who are not sure what to say, unclear how to approach someone, wondering whether or not to say something out loud to someone else.

When Katie role plays, she shows what it’s like to be a person who is without thoughts of distrust, anger, hate or fear towards the one she’s talking with.

So free to just go for it, be willing to hear whatever comes from someone’s mouth….not even willing, but LOOKING FORWARD to it!

So I always ask people to give-it-to-me, just the way they see it, everything they can think of that works or doesn’t work.

It’s not always easy….sometimes, I might doubt I want to hear what someone REALLY thinks.

It might hurt!

But that’s just an old, embedded belief that got grooved in quite deeply that seems to love to offer itself up for inquiry…and rather than hurt, the feedback from people is always beyond valuable.

One of the most common pieces of genuine feedback from workshops has been that some participants try to offer other participants advice, or get into conversation beyond just asking the four questions and waiting in silence.

People so want to help other people. People truly love seeing someone else succeed, calm down, relax, change, do a 180-degree change, “get” something, become renewed.

People will do this by giving advice, praising someone, offering words of encouragement, sharing their own story, giving someone a pep talk, teaching them….and many folks LOVE being the one who helped change that suffering person’s life over there.

But ARRRGHGHGH it can be freakin’ annoying when the advice is unsolicited, right?

The Work itself is only four questions, and then finding turnarounds to the original stressful belief.

There are some “sub-questions” that help tease out or drill down into really helping answer that primary question…and Katie offers them as a guide.

But no other questions. No story-telling. No special motivational techniques. No listening methods. It’s just four questions, and silence.

All you need to do to facilitate someone in The Work is to be able to ask a question, word-for-word…and wait.

We will do this in the mini-retreat in ten days….even more focus on the asking and the silence than ever. We will do this at Breitenbush in June in Oregon.

“There are only three kinds of business in the universe: mine, yours, and God’s. Whose business is it if an earthquake happens? God’s business. Whose business is it if your neighbor down the street has an ugly lawn? Your neighbor’s business. Whose business is it if you are angry at your neighbor down the street because he has an ugly lawn? Your business. Life is simple—it is internal. Count, in five minute intervals, how many times you are in someone else’s business mentally. Notice when you give uninvited advice or offer your opinion about something (aloud or silently). Ask yourself: Am I in their business? Did they ask me for my advice? And more importantly, Can I take the advice I am offering and apply it to my life?”~Byron Katie

Doing The Work is not just about questioning your own stressful thoughts. It is being in the presence of other humans who are questioning theirs. Interacting with you. Noticing their stories. Having compassion, seeing them as being just like you.

The more you do The Work with others….the more tolerant you may become. The more quiet as well.

Join others, find someone to facilitate, have someone facilitate you. Use the Facilitation Guide (click here to get it from Katie’s website).

The people you make contact with, even during a workshop or retreat, might have the power to shake you up or break you open or increase your love like no one has in months. You might find someone who bugs you just enough to open your mind to your own beliefs that create stress…

…those annoying advice-givers might bring you to your knees in gratitude…

…you might find a new best friend to partner with along the journey of loving yourself and your own mind.

Much love, Grace

P.S. Two awesome 8 week classes start in June and one in July….AND the one-year program starts in June. More on that very soon!

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Secret Of Giving Up Glittering Like A Jewel

A dear inquirer mentioned the other day that she was tired of dating…that her bounce-back level was waning.

Not sure she wanted to keep trying to connect with men. At all.

She was feeling this way after having an unpleasant experience that felt a bit scary for her after meeting someone online.

We all get discouraged sometimes.

We look at our stuff (also called by another word that also starts with “s”) and think thoughts like the following:

  • I give up
  • I’ll never get this right
  • I need to avoid the bad stuff, but I don’t know 100% how
  • I just don’t know enough, or have what it takes, to succeed
  • If only “x” hadn’t happened, I wouldn’t be in this discouraging situation
  • If only I had the chance for “y” then I’d be better off now
  • there’s surely something wrong with me
  • What did I do to deserve this?
  • This is too hard

What do these thoughts feel like physically, when you believe them?

I can practically feel my own shoulders cave in on themselves and a heavy weight push down on my back from behind. My energy sinks down. My mind says “F*%$ It!”

There are several strategies that enter for repairing a set-back or feeling of failure: I’ll regroup and try harder, I’ll keep going by golly even if it kills me, I’ll take a break and give up and do nothing, I’ll free-fall and stop caring, I’ll get distracted and attack (or help) someone else, I’ll switch over to another project and put all my energy into THAT instead (like cleaning out a closet).

All these might give some relief, and they are very natural. And then, you’ll probably circle back to the same original thought again at some point in the future….this place that I am now is not good enough. It could be better.

Right now in this moment, I can conjure that thought when it comes to two experiences I’m currently having: physical pain in back and hip, and wanting more money.

If I sit with these two beliefs, I can definitely find where this point, this measurement or snap-shot of this here now is NOT good enough…and it could be better.

Yep, I’m pretty sure it would be better if I had really strong back and stomach muscles (and lets throw in the arms while we’re at it, they’re looking a little saggy) and I’m pretty sure it would be better if I had a million bucks suddenly added to my bank account.

So even if I’m jesting (kind of), and know how not to take myself very seriously….it’s great to revisit these areas and look deeply with what I think I would gain if I acquired these things, if I had them.

Looking deeply with an inquiring, curious, not-so-judgmental mind is exciting!! And it isn’t really a strategy, that has temporary results. It has a way of causing me to look and get very clear….creating relief and joy beyond any of the other temporary measures for handling stressful, discouraged thinking.

So I look with open eyes and no planned goal, only wanting to understand and know the truth.

IF I had these better/more/easier things, such as the ones I mentioned, I believe I would be able to relax, be secure, feel attractive, love more.

I would feel more love and enthusiasm….IF I had more money and a tip-top body.

Is that really true?

Am I absolutely positive that more money or stronger muscles brings more love and enthusiasm?

YES! YES!

And I see how stressful it is….to look at what is here and have it not measure up. Over there is better. Seriously.

Ow.

Who would I be without the thought that over there would be better than HERE, like this, now? Really imagine it! If you couldn’t have the thought that something else would be better than this.

At first you might think “I’d be crazy outta my gourd!” without that thought.

But let yourself sit with what it might be like, if you were NOT CRAZY, or in denial, or confused, or mistaken, or wrong.

Can you catch a glimpse of it? If you really did NOT KNOW that it would be any better if these improvements were made?

What if this, the way it is right now, is the best it could possibly be, for the highest order, the highest good, the way of it?

How would you feel? What would you be like?

I get the instant feeling of letting go of a tight vice grip. I stare at everything around me. I feel wonder.

Innocent eyes, innocent ears, mind just doing its thing no big deal, watching, waiting.

Turning the whole situation around to the opposite:

  • I give up!….and its not sad, it’s easier, it’s fine, it’s gentle, giving up is kind
  • I’ll never get this wrong
  • I don’t need to avoid anything bad….it’s really OK I don’t know how
  • I just don’t know enough, or have what it takes, to fail
  • If only “x” hadn’t happened, I wouldn’t be in this amazingly wonderful situation
  • If only I had the chance for “y” then I’d be worse off now
  • there’s surely something right with me
  • What did I do to deserve this rocking awesome incredible powerful experience?
  • This is easy, it’s not too hard

I find examples of how these are true. I imagine the turnarounds, I open up to them being possible.

Even with a little more openness, I feel a lightness in my step. I hear a voice that says “oh, I wonder what’s next?!”

“In harmony with the Tao, the sky is clear and spacious, the earth is solid and full, all creatures flourish together, content with the way they are, endlessly repeating themselves, endlessly renewed….The Master views the parts with compassion, because he understands the whole. His constant practice is humility. He doesn’t glitter like a jewel but lets himself be shaped by the Tao, as rugged and common as a stone.”~Tao Te Ching #39

View the parts of your mind with compassion, even the one that says “I give up”.

GOSH, now that I think about it…I feel no pain in my back or hip at the moment, as I sit quietly without pushing. I also notice that there is enough money.

Love and enthusiasm are here, now. I don’t need anything to be different for that to be true.

You are being shaped by the Tao. Let go, see what happens. Everything returns to harmony. Seriously.

If you want to comment, ask a question, or share your experience about doing The Work on this topic….head over to the website and leave a comment under this post. It’s fun to read your thoughts, and I always respond.

Much love, Grace

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I Can’t Stand It (Again)

Last year at this time, I wrote about the thought that is soooooo common for many people to have, on a regular basis.

The thought? “I can’t stand it!!!”

It’s one of those simple, short, instant thoughts that comes to my mind if I really don’t like something that’s happening or something someone is saying.

Can you feel the sensations in your body that match the idea of not being able to stand it (whatever it is)? Tension, frustration, agony, fear!

When I’ve had very little sleep and I’ve been awake many hours, and maybe I see that I’m probably going to be awake many more hours still….the thought comes in “I can’t stand it, I have to sleep!”

But if that were really true, I’d fall down right there, wherever I was, and start sleeping.

It turns out I always “make it” through the day. So far in life, I’ve always stood it, I’m still here.

Let’s take a harder circumstance. I was reading Byron Katie’s book this Who Would You Be Without Your Story? and there is a woman whose husband had left her to go be with another woman. The woman believed “I can’t stand it”.

I remember when I was waiting in the doctor’s office after getting a biopsy of a funny mole on my thigh. The doctor had checked the stitches from the biopsy and then said “why don’t you get dressed and then I’ll come back and we can talk about this”.

Suddenly, this wasn’t going the way most other doctor’s appointments went. We’re going to TALK about this? My mind was off like the race horses! Before knowing anything! Adrenaline, alertness, anticipation, intuition.

And, I had The Work in me as a tool for questioning my reality.

I watched my mind within 10 minutes only, before the doctor even returned, question the belief “I can’t stand it, if it’s cancer”. It was cancer.

Katie writes “You believe you can’t stand it because you haven’t inquired. You haven’t enlightened yourself about how the mind works. So you have to live out I CAN’T STAND IT.”

A friend who loves doing The Work emailed me the title of a book he’s reading The Guru Next Door by Wendy Dolber. I live across the street from a bookstore (my personal addiction….we’ll talk about that later) so I bought it.

In the book is a list Wendy calls The Seven Understands of All Unhappiness. One of them is so simple:

“Believing something causes unhappiness is the very reason it seems to cause unhappiness”.

When I think about the things I can’t stand, I am CERTAIN that they cause unhappiness. Duh! Lack of sleep, lack of money, the cancer thingy on my leg, relationships ending, running out of gas in my car, not enough time, getting the flu, people dying, war, earthquakes.

Do these experiences REALLY cause unhappiness? What if they don’t? Almost hard to imagine, right?

But that’s what The Work brings. Even if it’s just the possibility that what I’m believing isn’t actually 100% true, and peace is possible, even in this “difficult” experience.

What if I CAN stand it? What if my life goes on? Or even if it doesn’t? Am I sure I couldn’t stand THAT?

So I watched what happened with the thing called cancer on my leg. I cried on the surgeon’s table as I was being wheeled in, but it was like my tears were not 100% serious. I thought about Jesus when he knew what was about to happen with the whole crucifixion situation and he said “God, do I HAVE to? Are you sure I can stand it? I’m not so sure about this!” 

Now there’s just a big 3 inch scar on my leg where there was once 45 stitches. I like to say I got in a sword fight with a pirate. What if having a cancer tumor cut out of your thigh is just as exciting as getting stabbed by a pirate? It’s a pretty good story. The key word being STORY.

“We’re using mind to enlighten mind, because there isn’t anything else….When we realize that it’s our own mind that is causing our suffering, then The Work begins, then the fun begins. It’s living in a whole other polarity, a whole other realm. And what I love about it is we no longer believe that the world is causing our suffering, that it CAN cause our suffering. It can’t not ever—no chance of it.”—Byron Katie 

What do you find that you think you can’t stand today? Or yesterday? Or ever?

What if you can stand it? What if there are advantages to standing it that you may not have even thought of yet?

Much love, Grace

P.S. Come to Breitenbush if you’re wanting to question that painful story you have of your body. June 26-30, 2013. Click the link next to Breitenbush below to read all about it, and for the phone number.

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A Good Story: Enemy Turns To Friend

Sitting on my couch yesterday morning in my little cottage, with lilac blooms in the air and sun (imagine that in Seattle) streaming through the blinds, I felt such gratitude as the current RH2H teleclass did The Work together on the phone.

RH2H stands for Relationship Hell To Heaven.

Yes, that means ANY relationship. Even that really awful one that feels like fiery hell, frustration, sadness or pain when you think about it and remember it, even if it’s long over.

Or maybe its a relationship that feels rocky….good some moments, bad others, not easy somehow, not pleasant.

Many people as they look at the course of their lives can see relationships that went sour, something happened and things changed course, there was conflict, there was a situation, fear entered the scene, lack of love permeated the communication.

Maybe something surprising was revealed, or the way you thought you knew someone turned out to be inaccurate.

Some people would say “if those are friends, who needs enemies?!” 

In the past couple of years, I had two of those kinds of relationships where I had the thought “Wow….really?” and felt enormous disappointment and near shock.

Now the funny thing is….all great dramas are full of relationship surprises. It’s what makes Shakespeare so famous. And soap operas.

As Eckhart Tolle said….any great movie has the following element:

Something goes wrong.

The thing is, if we get stuck in the part of the story where something went wrong, and give up, resent forever, rage against, or attack the person who became an enemy….then things stay trapped in the dark places and….. it gets kind of boring.

No one wants to continue reading the story, or watching the movie.

The good part is when there is a great battle, something is now set right, something is overcome, and Great Peace prevails over the land.

In fact many of the most famous and wonderful tales open where the world has been dominated by a long period of dark chaos….but we’re about to enter the part of the story where light returns, awareness, adventure, and glory!

The light and glory and love and beauty, you can see, come out of sorrow, unconsciousness, desperation and dischord. In the great stories, at least.

So maybe, those people who have caused trouble are giving you the chance for brilliance and love beyond what you’ve ever known.

Perhaps there could be no adventure, no breaking free from blindness, without them.

I know this is true for me.

“If I see an enemy, I need to take another look…because that is my friend, not my enemy. Enemies enlighten me to myself. That makes them friends. In the world of the personality, friends are people who agree with you. You say ‘look at him, he is a terrible person’ and friends agree ‘yes he is a terrible person’…so now you have the people who believe like YOU do. The cult of people that preach The Universe Is Mean And Unfriendly. And if one of those friends says….’is it true, are you sure, is he really a terrible person?’ then your cult is threatened and you have to kick them out of the Who-Agrees-With-You Cult, because they dared to question what you believe about the nature of the universe. So, look to enemies as friends, and friends and friends.”~Byron Katie

I may tell the story of how I was hurt by that person in my life, or shocked, or scared, or terribly sad….but if I tell that story, I notice that then my job is to do The Work and question my thoughts, question my story.

I find, and continue to find, goodness that comes out of that troubling experience I had with that person.

I find real, genuine examples of how without that challenging person, I would not be where I am today.

In the two relationships I thought of, that felt really off, I find many examples for it being really good that it went the way it went. They offered the following awareness, and I honestly might not have such deep, deep appreciation for these without those “enemies”.

  • I’m more confident than ever about my amazing career working with people all over the world to find freedom from stressful thinking
  • I have great appreciation for all my colleagues, grad-school professors, and mentors in counseling who are a part of my professional life
  • I adore my darling husband and his many easy and loving, mature qualities
  • I love my life of freedom from extreme addictive behavior including co-dependency
  • I love the lack of alcohol, drugs, using, overeating, and craving in my life
  • I get more than ever what genuine open and free friendship really means
  • I take care of myself very well, especially my health and well-being
  • I say “no” when I feel it much sooner, and “yes” sooner as well

I see my part in the dramas that occurred. I say into the universe, to the image of that person in my mind (it is not necessary to contact that person unless you realize its the right thing for you to do):

“Thank you for doing that—thank you for being yourself”. 

Interacting with those “difficult” people gave me some of the biggest lessons, growth and joy of my life.

What are examples of good things that came out of your troubling relationships? See if you can find at least three.

This is your time for making it a GREAT STORY!

And, if your tough relationships have been with FOOD or MONEY….join the teleclass that starts in June and spend eight weeks in discovery around these sometimes VERY troubling relationships.

Horrible Food Wonderful Food meets on Tuesdays starting June 11th from 5:15-6:45 pm Pacific time and Earning Money meets on Thursdays starting June 13th also from 5:15 – 6:45 pm Pacific time.

Both teleclasses already have people enrolled, and they are limited to 10 people max, so come on board if it’s right for you this time around, if its time to question that painful story.

Much love, Grace

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Should You Stay Or Should You Go?

There are some great, wide open, ever-developing questions in life…like what This all means?

But today, after many existential conversations lately (and they may never end) like “who are you?” I noticed the fun of going back to basics.

A wonderful inquirer was working on her desire to make a decision about a boyfriend this morning.

Should she stay or should she go?

What a common human question around relationships…but also moving, changing jobs, pursuing education….so many areas where the decision will apparently make a difference in life.

When I was a teenager and then later into my twenties (really, it is still part of my personality, just no angst about it now mostly) I had a TERRIBLE time making decisions.

Not only did I have a terrible time knowing which way to turn, which avenue to pursue, and whether to choose Yes or No, I also thought it was awful that I had such a difficult time MAKING the decision in the first place.

I had a lot of ideas that people who make decisions quickly and clearly are more powerful.Better. So of course, if I didn’t KNOW yet what to choose, I also felt secretly bad about myself.

Anyone having a hard time making a decision….I find out first if they’re judging themselves for NOT making one. They can question whether or not they really need to make one, really really right now.

They can question the thought “I SHOULD make a decision”.

But let’s say that part is handled, and they still have trouble deciding. They still feel anxious, or weigh the pros and cons, or research until after midnight, trying to “get” the answer.

What else might be going on?

There is something very important about this decision. It is life-changing. To get married or not, to have a child or not, to sell the house or not.

It SEEMS like it’s a big freakin’ huge decision.

What it has been for me is the perception of there being a RISK. Something to be afraid of.

Finding out what it is, the dangers about the upcoming possibilities after the decision, can offer incredible insights.

  • I might feel lonely
  • I will lose my current life as I know it
  • I could regret my choice
  • I’ll never get this person/place/home/experience back again
  • I’ll eliminate other possibilities in my life forever
  • I will feel bad, stressed, afraid, unhappy in the future…because of this decision

When there is a lot to lose, in your perception, and you really don’t want to lose then decisions can feel hard.

There is nothing wrong with projecting where peoples’ paths take them into a future most commonly, for example, should I attend graduate school or not? I may see that many people who love their work, and who have successful careers, also went to graduate school in a field they loved.

I may see that many people who get married are very content and happy in having one mate. I may see many people who downsize and live in a small home (or who upsize and live in a really big home) enjoy their lives.

As soon as you scratch the surface, however, you’ll see that the formula breaks down, and it’s actually impossible to know what will happen FOR YOU.

All you really have to base your decision on is what is happening right here, right now, in the present moment.

I either move towards or I move away from something in the present. Enough accumulated movements toward or movements away lead to something that looks different, later.

The sweet client decided to rewrite a Judge-Your-Neighbor worksheet on her boyfriend.

Rather than focusing on what she should or should not do.

That way, we could look at all the current judgments, thoughts, stressful beliefs, and upsets, and see if she was seeing them with clarity.

“The Master does his job and then stops. He understands that the universe is forever out of control, and that trying to dominate events goes against the current of the Tao. Because he believes in himself, he doesn’t try to convince others. Because he is content with himself, he doesn’t need others’ approval. Because he accepts himself, the whole world accepts him.”~Tao Te Ching #30

My job is to look at my fears, my worry about what I see HERE and NOW.

In the midst of not being able to control anything…not being able to change anyone….how can I feel the deep contentedness with myself no matter what is going on around me?

That person, those events, that institution, this situation…if I am content, I notice that it becomes very clear which direction to turn, left or right…or sit at the intersection for awhile.

I notice what feels like a more easy, contented match, for now, and that’s the way I move.

No idea what tomorrow will bring. Easy to say “yes”, easy to say “no” if its called for.

“When you become a lover of what is, there are no more decisions to make. In my life, I just wait and watch. I know that the decision will be made in its own time, so I let go of when, where, and how. I like to say I’m a woman with no future. When there are no decisions to make, there’s no planned future. All my decisions are made for me, just as they’re all made for you.”~Byron Katie

Weighing, thinking, examining all the possibilities are all fabulous…its a fun way to use the mind. But if you notice lots of anxiety under the surface about whatever decision is made…that’s the call to look deeper.

To do The Work.

And, you will know and be OK if it’s time to say goodbye because something different calls to you…moving away or moving toward, both exciting.

Much love, Grace

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Are You Just A Body?

Last Sunday evening I was in a small discussion group, all of us with our bag dinners. Plus pizza.

The topic was, in a nutshell, “who am I?”

A question asked by many spiritual teachers and scientists and psychologists over the centuries.

Once when I was on meditation retreat with Adyashanti, I went up to the microphone to talk with him.

After a rambling few words, Adya stopped me and said “Quick…without thinking…before you even analyze it…answer this question really fast and tell me what your answer is. But remember, don’t think about it, just tell me what you first instantly come up with!”

I agreed.

Then he said “OK, ready?”

Yes. Ready. Give it to me.

“Who are you?”

Oh jeez, not that question. I hate that question! I’ve been asking myself that question for years and don’t have a definitive answer. That question drives me CRAZY!!

But this time, I had to speak what I saw/felt/went with BEFORE I started thinking about it.

I saw wide, vast, empty open space. Like the view from an airplane, only without the plane.

“Great! OK then!” he replied.

That was it? I returned to my seat.

But it set off some kind of openness to being much more than “me” or this body or this personality. Without having to have an absolute ANSWER.

Maybe the answer for me was…”I don’t know”. And that was a good answer.

Last Sunday several of the participants in that discussion were puzzling about what the body is, if there is such a strong sense of vast space, or consciousness that is completely beyond the body, when it comes to all that we are.

The body seems to be there, every day. Basically the same one, although it has lots of changes over time, so its not really the same one.

A man who was a scientist spoke up, and everyone could tell he was very agitated. He said that of course he was this body, and that when it died, that was the end of him….that there was nothing more and anyone was a fool to think otherwise. You live, you die.

He was triggered, he said he would never come back to a discussion group like this again! He really seemed afraid, angry.

My heart went out to him. It brings on depression, fear, stress, and tension to judge that All This is the body, and that it is limited, useless and meaningless.

“The body is a physical form that shares the destiny of all forms: impermanence and ultimately decay. Equating the sense-perceived body that is destined to grow old, wither and die, with “I” always leads to suffering sooner or later.”~ Eckhart Tolle 

When I believe that who I am is my body, this machine, this living thing…and that’s it….then I can find that frightening.

But if I am not identified with the body, then it doesn’t matter if I have illness, or injury, or weakness, or vulnerability…..or beauty or strength, either.

I know that I am a part of something bigger….even if its very simple, just life on the planet, life energy.

Not that complicated. Birth, death, birth, death. All is well.

“When we know we’re going to die, when we really get that, in that moment we realize that we’re not in control. And then we get to watch. We get to watch this beautiful way of it. And love it. And not miss our own death.”~Byron Katie 

Who are you, besides a body? It’s OK not to know exactly.

In fact, not knowing may set you free into joy. Exciting!

Much love, Grace

P.S. Almost full! Come to Breitenbush Hot Springs to question your identification with the body. Find out what’s left when what you think is true….isn’t.

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Time For Work On The Body

We have only a few spots left in our fabulous retreat at Breitenbush Hot Springs Spa and Resort in eastern Oregon, USA.

We will do The Work of Byron Katie on THE BODY.

It’s a big topic. It ranges from smallish criticism and petty ideas….all the way to terror around death and pain.

My personal story is one of near suicidal despair and anger about my eating disorder (bulimia with a two-year anorexic stint) and my violent and unhappy relationship with having a body, eating food, and self-acceptance.

I also had a little illness called cancer.

My amazing and kind co-leader, Susan Grace Beekman (yes, we both are bear the name Grace…we think this is a good sign, maybe) has had her own journey of self-discovery through the body and now looks deeply at pain, aging and bum-knees, using inquiry.

Susan Grace has also been visited by the thought “I should be thinner” in earlier years in her life.

The relationship with the body has profound similarities to the relationship with the universe, with our relationship to our lives.

We seem to be housed in this unique envelope, called a body. And yet, everyone else has one that is generally pretty similar.

Separate, yet One.

Our look at these bodies and what we think of them offer beautiful learning about how our own minds and perceptions work.

What is this mind that is aware of this body?

What is so upsetting about the faults and vulnerabilities of this body here, or that body over there?

Investigating the experience of the body, whether sickness, injury, permanent change, aging, weight, or worry can lead to great freedom…if you’re ready to question what you’re thinking.

We have wonderful and thoughtful exercises planned, for clearly identifying what you really believe, for facing the endless chatter or terrible fear about your body.

We will dive into The Work and inquire. We will learn from each other.

Even if you have no experience in self-inquiry, or with The Work of Byron Katie, you will learn to do it well on this topic of the body.

Even though we’re nearly full, we’re extending the early registration deadline to May 15th, 2013 for the tuition portion of this retreat.

Check out everything HERE. You have to call Breitenbush to register, only by phone. This intriguing resort is deep in the mountains, no internet, no cell connection. It is time for rejuvenation, deep internal work, close contact with supportive people in the journey into yourself and your own thinking. Call 503-854-3320.

Much love, Grace