When something happens in life that feels frightening, whether very small or very big, it’s amazing to watch the mind and body react.
The inner all-about-me mind will say that this is the most important thing to think about, this frightening situation. It will return to it over and over.
If the mind is NOT thinking about the troubling situation over and over, then some other voices may come in and say, “Hey! Pay attention! This is worrisome, you need to watch out!”
Its as if this all-about-me mind is a president sitting in a grand office, working on important things….and then OUT THERE in the regular world something threatening happens.
The president is busy, but the police force and other military officials come running and knock on the door and shout, “WE’VE GOT A SITUATION HERE!”.
And then all forces are enlisted to figure out how to handle this “situation”. The underlying assumption is that this situation needs to change, to go away, to adjust, to get resolved.
There are extremely painful situations, that seem to be agreed upon somehow in the human condition, that feel bad, terrible and important to avoid or fix…
Losing all our money, getting a terrible disease, getting physically hurt, someone close dying or leaving, our house burning down, not having enough of something, like love.
The Work is a way to question our assumptions about what happens in life. Every “situation” can be examined and investigated.
Just because I’m afraid, or upset, or sad, or angry, or disappointed….doesn’t mean it really is Bad.
That’s quite an amazing first step, to stop, and ask Is it really true that this situation is wrong, or shouldn’t be happening, or is terrifying, or is permanent, or devastating, or dreadful?
The situation IS happening, but if we open to it happening, allow it to be as it is, then there might be a calmer response to it.
This doesn’t mean being passive, like swinging to the opposite of ATTACK-MODE and doing nothing. Calmness does not mean being mute, or extremely cautious.
Sometimes a bigger response is what is called for in a moment…with strength, love, and kindness.
If there was a toddler walking towards a huge freeway with cars speeding by, and any one of us saw the child, we would run (if we had legs) and call out (if we had a voice).
That would simply be the way of it. We would not say, “I am practicing allowing everything to be as it is, so I am going to lie here and do nothing”.
Recently I was thinking about leaders like Martin Luther King, Jr, Mahatma Gandhi, Aretha Franklin, Desmond Tutu, Byron Katie, Marshall Rosenburg…people who speak about what other new vision they have for difficult situations, an alternative to suffering.
I don’t like conflict much. I don’t like arguments with people, or shouting, or name-calling. I hardly ever have had situations that even look like this, I’ve avoided them.
The urge to withdraw or not speak up is very interesting, very subtle.
I find there are thoughts dancing about that make it more difficult to respond to a situation, to be truly honest. These are thoughts like:
- that person will hate me if I say “no” or if I say what I think
- if I don’t explain why I am saying “no” then she will get angry
- if I speak up about this situation, to authority, to others, they will get mad
- I should make people feel happy at all times, not upset
- if I tell the truth for myself, as I see it, I will be rejected
- people will think I’m stupid, mean, cold, immature, aggressive, mistaken
- I will be shunned, left, abandoned
- I better be NICE!
But after doing The Work on troubling situations, I find that my responses to new situations that arise are different.
I am not afraid of breaking the rules like “only say nice things”….because a deeper, more penetrating love comes alive, where I don’t have to constantly worry about if I said the wrong thing or that I MIGHT say the wrong thing.
I find the turnarounds coming alive from all these painful stressful beliefs about what nice-ness or kindness is supposed to look like.
- if that person is upset when I say “no” everyone is still OK and this is an amazing opportunity
- if someone is angry, it is safe, I am safe, no need to explain
- if I speak up they will get excited
- I can’t “make” anyone feel happy at all times
- if I am rejected, all is still very well
- people will think all kinds of things, and it’s their business
- I will be loved, cared for, set free
- I better be honest!
People come, people go, that’s the way of life. People certainly all won’t like what I am saying in every moment.
“…The path of the warrior is a lot more daring: you are cultivating a fearless heart, a heart that doesn’t close down in any circumstance; it is always totally open, so that you could be touched by anything.”~Pema Chodron
Today, after doing The Work and contemplating how I am so human when I feel afraid of other peoples’ reactions, I have such joyful energy towards those feisty, outspoken, action-oriented humans who have shown what its like to speak up.
Even if the words they speak are not favorable to me, how incredible to hear the honesty, the willingness to be courageous and SAY IT.
As I see beauty in ALL the people who speak…I see how it can be done with skill, with loving kindness, with trust….I can watch the great leaders and see how they did it.
“Know the male, yet keep to the female: receive the world in your arms. If you receive the world, the Tao will never leave you and you will be like a little child.”~Tao Te Ching #28
Today, I’ve questioned my thinking about that difficult person and un-doing my beliefs, the president calls off the troops, the situation is really not that important.
We have a situation here? Not anymore.
Love, Grace