Oh boy.
Yesterday I took my first shot at recording a podcast (remember I mentioned my new Peace Talk Podcast many weeks ago)?
The project: create a five minute presentation about inquiry, peace work, peaceful thinking…and make it fun to listen to, for anyone interested in inner change.
I mean, awesome topic, right?
First, it took me awhile to figure out how you start a recording. I see where to plug in the microphone to the computer, but then, how do I use it?
Google. Youtube. Watch training. Look over notes.
Finally. OK.
Then…turn the thing on and start talking.
However, rambling away is not exactly interesting to other people, including me.
This is for inspiration and community!
This is to be of service, and have fun while doing it!
I listened, and said “that is DEFINITELY terrible” then pushed delete, then pushed re-record, then listened, then delete, then re-record again, then delete again, then re-record again…
…until…
“Who would I be without the thought that this five minute podcast needs to be fabulous, creative, hilarious, fun, enlightening, inspiring and moving?”
How the heck would I know, at this point, at the very beginning?
Without the thought….I notice I don’t delete the last take. I leave it. I stop that episode and consider what another different episode might look like.
I noticed I was taking it very seriously. Like listening to my own voice with such high expectations, nearly impossible to achieve.
Without the thought…I’m back to mediocre.
Which is what the underlying theme of the podcast is about in the first place.
Enlightenment, self-inquiry, awareness for the ordinary mediocre person.
Like me.
Suddenly I feel thrilled, excited. Life is bringing along yet another adventure in creativity.
Nothing special required, nothing extraordinary or beyond-human needed.
Only me and a greater community of people connecting.
I turn the beliefs around about what I’m imagining should happen, and instead imagine the opposite….hilarious!
I should sound like a dolt if I do, I don’t need to be like some brilliant luminary, I look forward to being boring, rambling or uninspiring. This may go nowhere, it may go somewhere, I’m only along for the ride. I have no idea how this exactly even came about as an option or an experiment, it just unfolded and here I am, recording something called a podcast on planet earth in the year 2014.
I’m at the BEGINNING.
“Only in this moment are we in reality. You and everyone can learn to live in the moment, as the moment, to love whatever is in front of you, to love it as you….The miracle of love comes to you in the presence of the uninterpreted moment.” ~ Byron Katie
The uninterpreted moment of woman sitting on couch with new orange microphone, talking out loud about inquiry, speaking honestly, hearing the voice that comes out like a melody, enjoying this fun story at the very first chapter perhaps, without a future.
No idea what will happen next. No need to know.
I’m where I should be, now.
Much love, Grace