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Meanwhile…back on the ranch (picture tumbleweeds blowing on the wild plains of the inner mind)…
Today the Our Wonderful Sexuality class met for the fifth time and this is the toughest class I often think. People identify the worst thing that involves sexuality that they’ve encountered.
It may be someone they met who grossed them out once, or someone they learned about on television. In any case, the unspeakable happened….the embarrassing, horrifying, sad and painful.
Working with our thoughts about the worst people out there in the world, phew, that can get very serious. It feels heavy, disheartening, hopeless.
Many people said that with these thoughts about those people, they felt livid, paralyzed, and powerless.
Just trying to answer the question “who would you be without the thought?” was difficult.
Who would I be without the thought that people are getting damaged, especially children, and that their innocence is being taken from them?
This is one of those times in Question 4 when we may find it frightening to not have our stressful belief.
The thought that we know what is bad and wrong protects us. If we didn’t know that stuff going on was bad, we’re afraid we wouldn’t help, we wouldn’t fight or rip the bad guy to shreds, or get away from him.
I reflected after the call that sometimes, I have had to return over and over again to that question four when doing The Work on some very frightening, very taboo situations.
I love that every single time I teach the class, I get to return to the images in my head of some worst person out there who has harmed others.
Today I thought about Hannibal Lectures from that movie Silence Of the Lambs.
He’s not real (it was a movie after all) but he was the creepiest of creepy to me.
And every time, with doing The Work, I am unraveling my thoughts, looking at all the characters involved, watching with an open mind.
Who would I really be without the thought that Hannibal is evil, that he is a monster I must never run into, ever, that I am powerless and he is powerful, and that he can hurt others and destroy their lives?
A profound question to answer.
“I notice that if I believe it shouldn’t exist when it does exist, I suffer. Can I just end the war in me? Can I stop raping myself and others with my abusive thoughts and actions? Otherwise I’m continuing through me the very thing I want to end in the world. I start with ending my own suffering, my own war. This is a life’s work.”~Byron Katie
Love, Grace