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You might know my dreaded story of losing money, wanting money, obsessing about money, being so discouraged about money I could hardly handle it (but apparently, I did).
It felt soooooooo horrible at the time.
It even felt horrible AFTER the time.
I would remember the anxiety, like I was holding my breath, wondering constantly from month to month if I could pull the house payment together.
My kids were eligible for free meals at school.
I could have gone on food stamps, but was too proud to start the process.
I would dress in my power suit, and go to interviews. At least 20 once I really started pounding the pavement.
Many times, I was a finalist. I had never had such a strange “losing” streak with one person getting hired over me in the final decision.
Except.
Here’s the weird thing.
That whole pins-and-needles time of wondering what would happen every day with money, I had a secret.
I tried to smash it down and hide it and change it and bury it in the ground and fix myself.
My secret?
I did NOT WANT TO WORK at a J-O-B.
Seriously, I was so angry at the system, so bored in past jobs, feeling like a loser, and not having gotten the right education, and having let myself become dependent in a marriage, and not actually being all that interested in ANY companies or organizations.
Plus let’s not even get started on my feelings about the “nothing” I had to offer.
My self-esteem was so trashed….
….I never felt genuine and authentic in any single interview.
But a part of my process, at that time, was to begin to do The Work in earnest on not only money, but on work. Having a boss, co-workers, commutes, break rooms, cubicles.
I really had some negative ideas about “work”.
Did you notice I called work….which is really the very dynamic (and often fun, and challenging) experience of offering services and expertise in exchange for participating in an organizational community….
….a J-O-B like it was a swear word??
I hated the thought of someone “controlling” me and bossing me around, and expecting me to act certain ways.
I thought it would mean I was being suppressed, imprisoned, and enslaved.
Phew.
That was some rough and stressful thinking!
Thank goodness I recognized the stress and started asking myself….
….who would I be without the belief that getting a job was like going to prison and conforming to an office-building environment, forever?
Ha ha, I laugh at myself now.
Because without the belief, I noticed I felt excited about work.
And after I questioned my thoughts about jobs, I started getting more interested in the job hunt. At the very same time as people started asking me to facilitate them for sessions in The Work.
I got a part time job, not a full time one, through a weird series of circumstances. Which was perfect because it gave me time to work with more clients at home.
And at my new part time job, I loved the people, the interesting new problems, the communication challenges, my beautiful fancy office chair, the conference rooms with stunning views of the lake below, and excellent health insurance.
I loved the meetings, the really incredible professionals I met, the watching, learning, hearing and learning mega details about medicine and treatments I would never have learned in a million years normally, outside of medical school.
I practically miss that job, it was so cool.
Wow.
I never could have imagined actually becoming generally comfortable, feeling like I belonged, at a J-O-B.
Thank goodness for The Work.
It helped me turn my entire attitude towards finding jobs and earning money around to making it more like “play” in my reality.
Well….OK, that might be getting a little carried away (the word play) but it certainly wasn’t so “hard” all the time.
It was not positive thinking or trying to have a positive attitude, it was actually seeing it for real. A wonderful place to be for certain times during the week, with pretty awesome people.
If you’re upset about work, or unemployment, or co-workers, or commuting, or paychecks, or raises, or anything you do in your experience of money….
….question your thinking, change your world.
“I’ve never seen a work or money problem that didn’t turn out to be a thinking problem. I used to believe that I needed money to be happy. Even when I had a lot, I was often sick with the fear that something terrible would happen and I would lose it. I realize now that no amount of money is worth that kind of stress.” ~ Byron Katie
We’ll be doing this on May 10, May 17, May 24. Join me!