Horrible Food Wonderful Food teleclass is underway in a few hours, at 9 am pacific time. I think at the time of writing this we’re full, but if you’re really feelin’ it, hit reply…you might be able to fit right in.
Having said this….fitting just a little more in is not the approach I recommend for consuming food, and I’m sure you agree.
If you’re full, don’t try to fit one more bite in. Unless it’s balanced, fun and joyful and you’re simply sampling the taste.
Getting too full is so uncomfortable, right? At least for most of us. Sometimes this sensation of fullness sets off a huge torrent of self-hate as big as Niagara Falls.
I shouldn’t have consumed that, I shouldn’t have wanted it, I should have stopped myself.
But what about the opposite….what about not having enough?
Not just Not Enough food, but not enough money, attention, love, support, warmth, comfort, time, energy, health?
Not Enough can be just as stressful as Too Much.
It’s easy to find this to feel really true, for many of us, with MONEY.
I need more money, I want lots of money, I should be earning money, I should be receiving money, I can always use more money, there is never quite enough money, other people need me to get money….
The funny thing is, I never realized I had these kinds of beliefs at such a core, troubling level until I had just about no incoming money.
I had been laid off from my job, gotten divorced, had a cancerous tumor on my thigh, and I had not been picked (even when I was a “finalist” a bunch of times) for any of the jobs I interviewed for.
I used to think I was so mellow when it came to money.
“You can live on peanuts!” I would say. There’s no need to buy much of anything….I’m such a NON-CONSUMER.
All those people who have to have fancy cars and jet skis and tropical vacations and ginormous houses…they are all bound and burdened by their lifestyle and their desires.
I am so beyond all that. I hate shopping.
And then….I got squeezed.
It got personal.
And guess what? It seemed I had to take a look at all my thinking, all my beliefs about money. Because my entire system of thinking about money was very painful.
I got to work. I began writing down everything I thought about money. I started with the obvious thoughts, that I needed it ASAP, that I had to work to get it, that I would fail without it, that I would LOSE without it.
And then, as I continued going, looking at money….I discovered that I had a very snooty belief that Not Caring about money was GOOD, and Caring about money was GREEDY.
It was the same as my beliefs about food!
Not caring, not wanting, not desiring, not chasing after it...was much betterthan wanting, craving, desiring and grabbing.
But I needed money, it appeared, if I wanted to keep my home.
I needed food, it appeared, if I wanted to keep this body alive.
And I did want to keep living in my little cottage. I did want to be alive in this body.
(I did The Work and questioned these…and I could see it actually being OK to not want to live in my cottage or to stay alive in my body…a lightness about it instead of so freakin’ intense).
So is it true that you want to Not Want something? Like food, or money?
YES! OMG! I want to NOT WANT cigarettes, I want to NOT WANT that Bad Boy Boyfriend, I want to NOT WANT a car, I want to NOT WANT more money, I want to NOT WANT candy.
That’s the story of my life, of course it’s true! Absolutely!
How do you react when you believe the thought that you want to NOT WANT something?
I am so furious at myself, I’m slapping my own hands in my mind as I reach for what I want. Slapping down my desires. I hate my “wanting”.
I am viciously critical of those people who want money, who want cars, vacations, traveling, riches.
I ACT like I don’t want stuff that I DO want. I shove it under the rug. I think “I will NEVER admit how much I want that thing, item, person, experience.”
If people criticize me for being too aloof, or not caring enough, or not motivated enough….I write them off. Can’t they see what a genius I am, how brilliant I am to Not Want?
So. Who would I be if I couldn’t actually have the thoughts that Not Wanting is fabulous? Or Wanting is base, childish and out-of-control?
If it really did NOT MATTER, if there really was no right or wrong about noticing that you desire something…if you could experience the passion, the fire, the wild beauty of wanting without hacking it off like a diseased branch on a tree?
I would notice a new world opening up, full of creativity, energy, fun. Like a feeling of “Hey! Let’s go get some money!”
And it would be fine if I got some, and fine if not. This is not desperation, or fearful concern.
My house might go into foreclosure, I might move into my mother’s basement, I might not be able to pay for my children to have music lessons, or dance classes. I might not be able to go on meditation retreats.
But it’s not a disaster. Not a tragedy.
I am open, excited, detached, enthusiastic, full of zeal, eager…wondering what will happen next.
“We become conscious participants in the creation of form. It is not we who create, but universal intelligence that creates through us. We don’t identify with what we create and so don’t lose ourselves in what we do. We are learning that the act of creation may involve energy of the highest intensity, but that is not ‘hard work’ or stressful.” ~ Eckhart Tolle
If you’re ready to look at Money and earning it, wanting it, keeping it…then we’re beginning an 8 week class starting December 5th.
Questioning your beliefs about money could dissolve all hard work and stress, and leave you light and enthusiastic. I highly recommend it. You don’t have to join a class to begin, start questioning your beliefs today.
If you’re interested in the Money teleclass: Go to the website here to read more about it.
Love, Grace