The other day, I was listening to (yet another) audio teaching about growing my business, running webinars, marketing and creating a production plan and hiring a team….
….and I had the thought “this is ridiculous”.
Not the actual teaching and audio, which was superb (and for which I am grateful) but this is ridiculous that I’m constantly and compulsively thinking I need to learn something.
I need to get something. I need to catch a drift here. Things will be better…soon.
Meanwhile….
….I need to GROW my business. I need to GROW my bank account. I need to GROW my inner peace. I need to GROW my personal health and fitness. I need to GROW my awareness. I need to GROW my relationship with my partner, kids, family. I need to GROW my love and joy.
Oh man.
There it is, an energy of something being off over the horizon.
Including Spiritual Awakening, which isn’t here.
Yet.
Chasing the carrot! The ever-dangling carrot just out of reach of the horse’s mouth.
Yummy carrot if I only stretch, push a little harder, race, strain and go a little faster!!
But who the heck would I be without that “almost there” thought permeating everything?
I mean, really….the mind thinks “almost there, not quite there yet” about everything.
Money, health, wealth, love, success, happiness, awakening.
Who would I be without the thought that any of these things are ALMOST there (but not quite)?
Wait. What?
Huh?
Without the belief that this isn’t it?
Dang. (Slow whistle). Woah.
I notice, it’s all here.
It’s right here, all complete, all brilliant.
No searching required.
Here’s a computer, and a bookshelf, and a standing lamp, air in this room, a bathrobe hanging on a hook, an arm, a hand, kitchen noise happening, footsteps on the porch, a silver ring on a finger, a pen.
Absolutely fantastically glorious!!
“I got myself into a right pickle. I became exhausted with the whole thing. With the spiritual concepts, the teachers, the awakening stories, trying to get there. I had been trying, trying, trying soooo hard to get there. I was brought to my knees. I was exhausted from trying. Fed up with spirituality. Nauseated with the whole thing. I didn’t want to hear the word ‘consciousness’ or ‘awakening’ ever again. That’s how BAD it got….It had ALL become second hand. And I looked at a chair in my childhood bedroom and thought ‘oh’. Life is right here. All these things I’ve made into destinations. But they are here. It’s a chair! It’s a chair!” ~ Jeff Foster
Turning the thought around:
It is all here already. There is no ‘almost there’.
No just-around-the-corner. It’s here!
Money, health, wealth, love, success, happiness, awakening.
RIGHT HERE!!!!!
Can you feel it?
“You can neither look for the truth, nor find the truth, nor lose the truth; for all the time you are the truth.” ~ Adyashanti
Much love, Grace