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The other day when I was making a short video about where addictive urges come in (I was talking about food compulsion of course, my speciality) I had flashes about how horrible that period of time was for me when my mood was like a roller coaster, and I was very addicted.
The thing is, when you have threatening underlying beliefs about reality, your mood definitely swings.
This is good, that is bad, that is great, this is awful.
Constant commentary. Constantly scaring yourself.
If you’re a believer….then when you think something, your feelings follow. They match what you’re thinking!
I used to believe this meant I shouldn’t be thinking bad thoughts.
Yeah, that’s the ticket.
Think positive thoughts all day long, and I’ll be happy, happy, happy.
Gag.
Seriously?
What an impossible project…and it’s so unnecessary.
Because here’s the good news.
Even when you think bad, difficult, troubling, horrifying thoughts….part of you is actually OK. You’re surviving. You’re here.
You’re human.
And you can’t stop the mind, that’s for dang sure. It’s like trying to stop your blood from pumping through your veins.
What if you let your nutty mind say what it wants to say, for once, instead of trying to mute it?
All I know is, the more I expressed my greatest fears, anxieties, rage, grief and unhappiness and then treated these thoughts like I was the best most loving wise fairy godmother on the entire planet….
…..a really good listener, who cared….the softer they became.
They settled down.
They didn’t have to scream for attention anymore.
Sometimes, they aren’t even home. They’re all out on errands, exploring the rest of the planet perhaps, and the house of my mind is very, very quiet and peaceful.
If those voices come back, well….nothing I can really do about it.
EXCEPT.
I can enjoy their company, see if they have any important messages, keep getting to know them intimately, since they are a part of me.
After all, whenever they come visit, it might be the last time I ever see them again.
“The deeper that sorrow carves into your being, the more joy you can contain.” ~ Kahlil Gibran
See what it’s like to give up your quest for positive thinking. To stop worrying so much about thoughts and what they’re doing, creating, running or inventing for you.
You may be surprised at how relaxing it feels, to just allow your mind to be as chaotic and full and anxious as it is, and not try to change it or be so frightened of the contents.
Simply question, instead.
See what happens. No expectations.
It may be way better than any Positive Thinking plan you ever implemented.
Love, Grace